Written in my journal on July 14th, 2010

All I need is my sweet tea and MY SWEET JESUS!

Looking ahead to leaving SOAR, NMC, and Indiana I become unsettled and excited at the same time. The challenge of being light in the dark is one I live daily, but how will I be light to the worlds in my life now that I'm changed. I feel more prepared then ever to be that light to the darkness that surrounds me at home and at Susquehanna, but I am curious to see how I will react to my worlds that I've put on hold for the summer. Pastor Dave used Noah as an example of somebody who praised God after a season in his life, in his message on Sunday. It really got me thinking if I would do the same after this season in my life. "Then Annabelle....." What will I do and how will I live? I am confident that I will live a life with Christ and be mindful of our sweet relationship, but what will others see? What will they say? How will they really know I am changed, that I am different? I'm a follower of Jesus Christ, His disciple! Will I be strong enough to impact the world around me? Will I be willing? Dustin always says, "He is able, if I am willing." Is that true for me too,? Am I willing? Is He able? I am willing! And I want to live boldly and without fear. I want to be LOUD and open about my faith. I want my hope to be unshakable, and my love for others to be pure. I want my joy, a deep joy that comes from my soul to be seen at all times. A joy that I will hold onto for strength.

ta da 

"The joy of the Lord in my strength"

Right now, outside of the Grand Hall Entrance I feel the morning sun shining on my face, I know I am new.

"For the old has gone, the new has come."

I feel light from the Lord. I fell loved and secure. I'm a changed Anna, I'm now Annabelle. My perspective and discipline have changed and improved. God in my life is not scattered and inconsistent, but consistent. And the freedom of knowing Him has become my true happiness. I know I have a call on my life. A call to work in Ministry. To share love and bring hope to those in need. What my futures holds, I have no idea, but God already has those details smoothed out. No doubt He is on the move. I am ready. I will answer. I will let the Spirit be my Guide.

<3 Annabelle



....just what I need to hear today!