STRESS

Life right now is defined by lesson plans, unit plans, observations, journals, papers, presentations, tests, PRAXIS II exams, and everything else that relates to teaching and academics. I can't handle this anymore. After this semester I'll be student teaching and taking one class, so the load will be less, which is nice for my last semester. But right now I can't breath.

I wish life was defined by an abundant time spent in the Word to study, read, and reflect on my Sweet Jesus. I'd do more to seek Him, who means everything to me. I'm still seeking and relying on Him, but in small pieces and moments. I haven't felt the overwhelming presence of the Holy Spirit in a while, and I long to be close to that experience. I hate this complacent cycle I'm in. I don't feel radical anymore, I feel like life is getting the best of me, and I can't stop it. Responsibilities swamp me every which way I look and stress in the usual. I want all this baggage to be taken off my shoulders.

I'm really sitting on and praying about a big decision/opportunity in my life right now. I'm scared. I'm nervous, and my faith comes and goes. I'm confident every other minute, and then what people have to say gets the best of me. Financial strains are killing me and I'm being tested in a weak area of trust.

I'd do anything to feel satisfaction and freedom carried on a summer breeze.